So....

Its been like forever,
I really miss everyone at church,
Im workin on getting back to coming,

I look different what with four gauge earrings in
and longer hair than most are used to seeing me with
lol




I really have alot to say,
I wonder if i can get it all out
??????

Ima give it a try,
I
have
but
22
days
left
until
im
outta
school
yippee

ok not so yippee
i mean
i have to get a job
and
i wont get to
see
my
girlfriend
all that often
and yea

But im kinda lookin forward to getting outta school and into the real world
and yet somehow it is oddly frightening,
the concept of
graduating
and moving on to
something bigger
getting a job,
seeking out college education,


i guess if you put it into perspective
its not all that scary,
but more exciting,
im wanting to go to college down in Orlando Florida
I love the sunny beaches
the warm salty air,

I cant wait,

anyways ima move on to my
Sweetheart
Her name is
Heather,
She means the world to me
I wouldnt trade her for anything
she is my sunshine on a cloudy day
she makes me smile when im not feeling very smily
She is six foot tall,
tan
and absolutely gorgeous

I need a car,
i know
what a random jump of subject,
but yeah i need a car,
i want something small
like a tuner,
a Jap. car
customizable,
and
well reliable

and i want to go bowling,
any takers,
and going to taco bell,
that sounds like fun,
anyways

i think thats all im getting out tonight,
ill post more sometime soon,

sorry to anyone who reads this
for the long period of nothingness,

peace

el oh el :)

Ok,
so alot on the mind,
As of recent,
aka the past two weeks.
I have done some thinkin,
I realized,
that life has more to it than just highschool and teenage years,
there is life after school,
and I have learned that there is no point in holding grudges,
no point in starting and or getting involved in
DRAMA,

Drama is but a pimple on the face of life,
and the more you agitate it,
the worse its going to get,

Anyways, I am also learning who my friends are,
well who my true friends are,
its been a real eye opener,
and I have stopped associating with many of
the "friends" I once had,

I have been working on being more mature,
some of my friends have said I can be immature,
and I can, but I dont think I take it to far.

And then theres the matter of me being one who is to risky,
I honestly dont think i take that many risks,
or that there that big of risks,
You cant live life without taking chances,
I mean how will you ever know what could be if you don't go for it ?

And there is this one person,
I wont mention names,
that just idk I cant help but like,
like alot,
she stays on my mind like
24/7
and I cant help it,
idk how she did it,
and I cant say I mind,
but she has done it.

:)

I cant not smile
when I think about her.

but I feel like we have grown kind of distant as of recent,
maybe thats my fault idk..

anyways she still makes me smile,
:)


I would like to think she smiles whenever I happen to cross her thoughts
but I never can tell,
anyways i think thats about it,

so

PEACE

long time no write ...

Any ways
Not much for me to write about really,
except to say how happy i am,
things are working out,
and i am doing good,
i only have 3 months of school left,
then i get to get a full time job
lol i cant say i look forward to that,
but its bound to happen sooner or later,
I dont have that much work left to do on my senior exit project.
and my home life is pretty good,
so i am happy for now,
And i hope i can keep it that way for a while,

:)

Just an update to my previous post....

so i added more to the rose bc it was still there when i got back in fourth,



i know these are crappy pics,





but i liked it so i kept it,
and if its still there tomorrow i will continue
to add to it




these are just for funsies



any ways tata for now...
:)

So in foods today.....

we was taking notes on,
sanitation i think,
i could be wrong but anyways,
I was bored as usual and I started doodling while paying attention to
the teacher,
so i am now paying attention to the teacher,
while drawing/doodling on the desk,
well about 30 minutes later i look down and what do i see,

non other than this,
(note: this has been digitally altered to cover a certain something)

as was this one,

ok this was kinda a shock to me,

and then again in fourth, english 4 this happened again,

except with a different outcome,
not so much different
but different,

and i look down and what do i see

A big detailed rose staring back at me,
it only made since when i really thought about it,
cause usually nothin like this happens,

as much as i would like to say why i digitally altered the heart
i cant at this point in time,
sorry :(


any ways have a good day,
bc mine was
better than it has been in quite awhile,

just a quick post.....

Over the last few weeks
my life has been all downhill,
i feel like im losing all my friends,
and gaining nothing,
i feel like crap all the time and
well thats about it

so i put 14 guages in

i decided to go ahead and put 14 gauges in,

its only been a week since i got them pierced

but yeah haha

Ones heritage,,,,

I always think it great to hear from ones origins and roots,
whether it be music or poems,
or maybe some folklore.

It really helps one feel as if they have something they can connect with,
and if your a mix that just means you have a variety, lol.


I dont know why but I have always been real deep with my
Irish heritage, it always stood out deeper in me,
ran deeper in my vains,






Im not sure what I find so intriguing about Ireland and the irish,



Not to mention the irish accent
I have even caught myself talking
with an irish accent before,






I have longed to visit Ireland for
awhile now,
but alas
I can assure you i will visit it oneday.

slán go fóill

So as i promised..

keep in mind that these are crappy pics




and then a close up













so there you go

So i got my ears pierced.....

And ima have some pics up soon,

Just because i could.....

So I just finished reading,
the bio of Ruth Graham,
very good read I recommend it.

Any ways here recently I got to thinking,
and wondering what my meaning or purpose was in life.
And it hit me last night, while i was laying in bed,
listening to techno,
and it doesnt matter what my purpose is,
all that matters is I trust God to take care of me,
and be grateful that he has given me so much,
so many great friends,
never have i went hungry,
hes always taken care of me.
Even when I doubted him he still took watched out for me,
so in the end I know he has a purpose for me,
whether i realize what it is or not isn't
important, because I know I will fulfill it when the time comes.

So I am content to just wait,
I dont want to rush things,
I want to sit back and relax and let things take their own time,
and enjoy life as it is.
And I know this is possible,
just as I know that If i trust in God all things
will be taken care of.

And so I shall leave you with this,



In all thy ways acknowledge him,
and he shall direct thy paths.
Proverbs 3:6

Tattoos, yep im getting one,

Ok so im getting a tattoo, and
i already know its gonna be tribal
and i know its gonna cover my chest plates,
my side and my back,
and its going to be outlined in
a neon green UV Ink
(aka blacklight tattoo,)



so the outline will look something like that.

Any ways i want some opinions on which style to base mine off of
so heres some examples



No i will not be getting the full sleave as you see on this,
but i will be getting the shoulder done,



Now i dont know if i want to go with the thin style lines
like this one or if i should go with the thick style like the one above it.

also the ones that i have posted so far have all been only one side
mine will cover both
something like this



Also i will be incorporating the monkey symbol



and the gemini symbol



into it bc well i was born in the year of the monkey and im a gemini,
go figure,


so any suggestions would be nice,
Thank you.

Jealousy

While I must admit, I am usually pretty
immune to jealousy,
I think I have a bad case of it now,
And its just one person im jealous of,
and I know I shouldnt be jealous,
but I am.

Jealousy can hurt much, especially when its between friends.
My jealousy hasnt had the chance to,
and I dont plan on letting it.

I cant say much more, else I risk giving away whom I'm
Jealous of,

Any ways I just wanted to say,
Dont let jealousy get to you,
there's no need for just as i will say i have no reason to
be jealous,
I have a great life wonderful friends,
my relationship with god is good,
everything is great.

Ok so not everything,
But none of yall need be concerned bout that,

And yet i still cant help but
get this feeling of
deep jealousy.

It is really starting to get to me,
i want it to go away,
This green rage, this jealousy
I fight it from day to day
but it ignores me and refuses to flee,
While my strength falters and begins to sway,
This jealousy it runs deeper in me,
I reckon its here to stay
This Jealousy.

And so i will continue my struggle,
Tata for now

Just for fun

Ok so.....



the rubix cube,
(actually this post has almost nothing to do with the rubix cube)

but it did play a key role in my photoshoot,
No i havent gotten a new camera i borrowed one,
and my dad was all like "My camera is so much better than that camera just because mines 8m"
and i was "no its not",
keep in mind i was using a kodak 4 mp.
Any ways i wanted to test out some of the manual settings,
and what not, so i did a photoshoot of my rubix cube.

PAUSE:
Philisophical insight in the rubix cube.
Just because i know you guys want me to be deep, :)

The rubix cube, can in many ways be considered something like,
the wonderful phenomenon known as life.
You can make a million turns and still be no where near the end,
OR you can make a few harder and more thought out turns and succeed.

Also the Rubix cube has many sides, each side its own color, these colors can represent
different stereotypes, you know the highschool jock, or the preps, maybe a greaser
or a nerd,
or maybe you like to think of it as one sides your boss and another is your coworker while your
another side,
any ways the point is all this sides can mix and mingle with no problems,
and while they may look best uniform and all the same
that doesnt mean that they have to group up and single others out,

they can all be mixed and still make just as nice if not nicer group.

Another example the rubix cube has no set rules,
your objective is to get it done and every side or color back in its respective place,
Life has no set rules and your objective is to enjoy it and live it to the fullest,

I live mine through the word of Christ, and Jesus.
I live by the bible.

Anyways what im saying is,
life is a one time thing,
Make of it what you will,
but dont be pushed and bullied into doing things one way,
The only way you should do things is by the way you
believe is right.

:UNPAUSE

Any ways so I wanted to play around with this camera to
learn a little bit about
an unfamiliar cameras manual settings and Quality,



as you can see it has very good quality for a 4 mp.

This was with an aperature of F3.6 shutter speed of 8 seconds and an iso at 80.

It captured the light farely well of course the lens was open for 8 second, so it
had plenty of time to capture the light. still decent quality.
Though i dont think i want to have to lug a tripod around every where for this
quality of a picture,

You know you hear me talking about megapixels all the time,
when really the MP dont make that much of a difference,
really the only difference the MP make is the size of photograph you will be able to get
out of a picture,
A 3 to 4 MP camera makes a nice 6 by 8 picture,

anyways while I was messing with this camera i found the feature to change what MP
I was shooting at,
so Below i will post two pictures,
one is a 4 MP and the other will Be a 2.1 MP

Im not gonna say which is which,
I want you to post a comment guessing,
later this week i will repost the two pics labeling them Mkay.





and then



Remember both of these were taken on the same settings,
just different MP count,

( Yes i know they havent been called greasers since the 60's)

so have fun guessing and goodluck,
Till next time,

Another peice of literature.

This entrancing look into
the life of the early 30's
is another one of my favorite peices of classic literature.
John Steinbeck was an amazing writer,
I remember, as I was reading this amazing novel,
I would get lost in my mind.
I didn't feel like I was reading so much as
I was actually in the book, living it out.
The detail, and the wording of the book was so captivating, I almost couldn't
put this book down.
I think had my dad not literally pulled the book out
of my hands, I would have had this book finished
within the first day I picked it up.
lol
(Thats not that unusual with a good book)'
Any ways this is the story of a family, who in the
30's, and in the great depression, lost there farm
to the big time bankers.
The family was forced off there land and made to head west,
where there was said to be some work and jobs.
The family finally makes it just to find them selve's left hungry and
jobless as to be expected.
This book goes through the whole journey west and part of the way back to the east.
I love this book, it is a masterpiece of masterpiece's.
John Steinbeck also does,

"Of Mice and Men"



Another one of his best pieces,
I have read and reread this book
atleast
four or five times,
just as I read "Grapes of Wrath"
atleast 3.
Both are wonderful wonderful works of
literature and I highly recommend them to any
classic literature aficionado,
or just someone looking for a good read.
Enjoy!

First sketch

So i found this just a few minutes ago,
and its one of the original sketches to the peace
drawing i posted a little while back.
I liked the butterflys and yin yang sign i did on this one
but it wasnt to the taste of my client.
And im glad she didnt like this one, bc if she had I
would never have drawn the final draft shown below.
I really dont know what i was thinking when i drew this
bc it looks horrible.
The placement is all wrong, its to empty and yin yang sign
looks like crap, all though i should have kept the butterflys,
But then again one must comply with the client, any ways yeah,

At the moons peak,

So i was outside the other night just enjoyin
some fresh air when i noticed the moon
in the cloudless sky.
I thought it was inspirational so I
took out my brothers telescope and began to
study it with what some would call
a philosophers eye.
Looking and studying
every crater and shadow for some meaning or
reason, only to find that it was nothing less than
a miracle of God.
A work of art left for humans, man and woman,
child and father,
all alike to admire and to
be inspired by.





This miracle of god, whilst i was looking at it
I got the brilliant idea to take pictures.
and they are rather stunning they came out alot better than
I ever imagined possible.
Especially since I was using my little brothers
cheap 2 mp camera.
But the vivid detail that it brought was rather stunning,
You can see the many craters and shadows of the moon.





Imagine walking on the surface of such a monstrous island in the depths
of the black see we know as space.
A void filled with rocks and asteriods,
burning gasses and debris.
A place where it was said no man could return from,
and yet we, as mere humans in this universe of miracles managed it.
Think not that it was bc humans are so great or almighty that
we hath succeeded, no it is bc with his hand, God did carry our men to the moon
and with his hand he hath gave them safe passage back.




I could look at the moon all day,
except it is hidden from ones view whilst the sun
does shine.
I am going to work on getting a sun filter for the telescope so i can add some images of
the sun.
Anyways the moon can mean many things,
to many people.
To me it is a creation of God,
placed in this precarious universe as an
inspiration to all those who will take it,
an inspiration to never give up,
to shoot for the moon,
and if you miss the moon
then grab the stars.



Nothing is impossible!
Man i would love to walk in one of those craters,
oh well,

A couple of my older drawings

This is something i was asked to draw for a friend,
i spent approximately 7 hours on this drawing,
She asked for a collage of peace symbols,
yet she wanted flames, i tryed a true collage but she didnt like that so much
so i went with this.
When she asked me to draw this i accepted bc
it was the perfect task for my mood.
I was struggling with my inner peace at the time i drew this,
One feeling in particular i remember having was that i felt like
there was a tug-of-war between peace and
chaos inside of me,
and I distinctly remember feeling that the chaos was winning
or as the flames show engulfing the peace.
I wished i had a decent scanner,
this copy looks like crap :/






This one i dont reckon i really had a mood,
well i was bored and i started doodling.
This particular picture started as nothing more than the dagger
you see near her hands and some how or another it
became this.
Idk but every time I look back at this one I think of an fallen angel.
Or something that was once good, that has fallen under
some terrible influence.
I do remember i was reading
The second book in the Inheritance cycle,
"Eldest"
Btw i love the Inheritance Cycle,
if you havent read it I highly reckomend you do
The first Book in the cycle is called "Eragon" and is written
by Christopher Paolini.
It is a Fiction book and
its an intriguing tell of a young boy who whilst hunting for food
comes upon an dragon egg and becomes a dragon rider and must save
his lands from an evil king named Galbitorix,
anyways ill talk more about it in another blog,
but seriously i highly recommend the Inheritance cycle for those who like
Fiction.
Now as i was saying i was reading the Inheritance cycle when i drew this
but i have no idea if that even has any correspondance with the thoughts
that were flying around in my head at the time i drew this.

Just to get started and let people know a little about some of my interests!

For starters never blogged in my life so this is a new experience for me,
so ill start by saying i have a ton of interests and opinions ill be
tapping into during my posts.
Some of the more common things you'll probably be seeing on
my posts are stuff about, literature(classic and modern),
Photography( I need to get a camera),
and just life in general.
There are so many ways to express ones opinions
and i tend to do it through more of an artistic outlook.
Oh yeah and art, not so much sculpture and paintings and stuff like that,
but more in the traditional line style art (aka pencil and pen drawing).

Anyways lets dig a little deeper into some of my interests and how i got into them.
Lets start with liturature, now most people consider liturature boring and waste of time,
when really its quite the opposite, not to mention the many many life lessons that can be learned from the many geniuses that wrote some of the most famous pieces of liturature in history.
One of my favorites is Homer's "Iliad" i absolutely love this epic tale, so masterfully worded
with such syntax as to keep your eyes glued to the pages, as if in a trance. But think not that it is only the wonderful tale within the pages of the Iliad that keeps one so drawn to it, No it is also the way Homer so skillfully worded, and layed the whole structure of it out.
In my opinion Homer was an literary genius.

Ok Next I absolutely love photography, but as of now i have no camera,
nor the money to get one,
so i am stuck with no way of capturing the natural beauty and peices of art the lord hath left
on this earth for all to see.
I will work on getting a camera and start, posting some of my photoshoots as soon as possible
Until then i will stick with my hand drawn artistic masterpieces,
( hahaha that was a good jk masterpieces ha)


But none the less i do draw no matter how crappy it is,
it is one of the many ways i express my thoughts
and much more my feelings,
so generally my pictures match my mood.
any ways i will post some of my drawings as soon as i get them uploaded to my computer,
until then i bid you farewell