So....

Its been like forever,
I really miss everyone at church,
Im workin on getting back to coming,

I look different what with four gauge earrings in
and longer hair than most are used to seeing me with
lol




I really have alot to say,
I wonder if i can get it all out
??????

Ima give it a try,
I
have
but
22
days
left
until
im
outta
school
yippee

ok not so yippee
i mean
i have to get a job
and
i wont get to
see
my
girlfriend
all that often
and yea

But im kinda lookin forward to getting outta school and into the real world
and yet somehow it is oddly frightening,
the concept of
graduating
and moving on to
something bigger
getting a job,
seeking out college education,


i guess if you put it into perspective
its not all that scary,
but more exciting,
im wanting to go to college down in Orlando Florida
I love the sunny beaches
the warm salty air,

I cant wait,

anyways ima move on to my
Sweetheart
Her name is
Heather,
She means the world to me
I wouldnt trade her for anything
she is my sunshine on a cloudy day
she makes me smile when im not feeling very smily
She is six foot tall,
tan
and absolutely gorgeous

I need a car,
i know
what a random jump of subject,
but yeah i need a car,
i want something small
like a tuner,
a Jap. car
customizable,
and
well reliable

and i want to go bowling,
any takers,
and going to taco bell,
that sounds like fun,
anyways

i think thats all im getting out tonight,
ill post more sometime soon,

sorry to anyone who reads this
for the long period of nothingness,

peace

el oh el :)

Ok,
so alot on the mind,
As of recent,
aka the past two weeks.
I have done some thinkin,
I realized,
that life has more to it than just highschool and teenage years,
there is life after school,
and I have learned that there is no point in holding grudges,
no point in starting and or getting involved in
DRAMA,

Drama is but a pimple on the face of life,
and the more you agitate it,
the worse its going to get,

Anyways, I am also learning who my friends are,
well who my true friends are,
its been a real eye opener,
and I have stopped associating with many of
the "friends" I once had,

I have been working on being more mature,
some of my friends have said I can be immature,
and I can, but I dont think I take it to far.

And then theres the matter of me being one who is to risky,
I honestly dont think i take that many risks,
or that there that big of risks,
You cant live life without taking chances,
I mean how will you ever know what could be if you don't go for it ?

And there is this one person,
I wont mention names,
that just idk I cant help but like,
like alot,
she stays on my mind like
24/7
and I cant help it,
idk how she did it,
and I cant say I mind,
but she has done it.

:)

I cant not smile
when I think about her.

but I feel like we have grown kind of distant as of recent,
maybe thats my fault idk..

anyways she still makes me smile,
:)


I would like to think she smiles whenever I happen to cross her thoughts
but I never can tell,
anyways i think thats about it,

so

PEACE

long time no write ...

Any ways
Not much for me to write about really,
except to say how happy i am,
things are working out,
and i am doing good,
i only have 3 months of school left,
then i get to get a full time job
lol i cant say i look forward to that,
but its bound to happen sooner or later,
I dont have that much work left to do on my senior exit project.
and my home life is pretty good,
so i am happy for now,
And i hope i can keep it that way for a while,

:)

Just an update to my previous post....

so i added more to the rose bc it was still there when i got back in fourth,



i know these are crappy pics,





but i liked it so i kept it,
and if its still there tomorrow i will continue
to add to it




these are just for funsies



any ways tata for now...
:)

So in foods today.....

we was taking notes on,
sanitation i think,
i could be wrong but anyways,
I was bored as usual and I started doodling while paying attention to
the teacher,
so i am now paying attention to the teacher,
while drawing/doodling on the desk,
well about 30 minutes later i look down and what do i see,

non other than this,
(note: this has been digitally altered to cover a certain something)

as was this one,

ok this was kinda a shock to me,

and then again in fourth, english 4 this happened again,

except with a different outcome,
not so much different
but different,

and i look down and what do i see

A big detailed rose staring back at me,
it only made since when i really thought about it,
cause usually nothin like this happens,

as much as i would like to say why i digitally altered the heart
i cant at this point in time,
sorry :(


any ways have a good day,
bc mine was
better than it has been in quite awhile,

just a quick post.....

Over the last few weeks
my life has been all downhill,
i feel like im losing all my friends,
and gaining nothing,
i feel like crap all the time and
well thats about it

so i put 14 guages in

i decided to go ahead and put 14 gauges in,

its only been a week since i got them pierced

but yeah haha