Well..... its been quite to long....

Now
where to start...
umm I think my last post was almost two years ago!!!
I cant believe I've been away for so long,
so much has happened and so much has changed.
I've gone through some life changing ordeals,
I've gone through some not so life changing ordeals,
but all has been a learning experience.

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anyways so yeah,
random keyboard art..hahaha,
I crack myself up!

ok so...not funny, but hey I try!


When I look back through my old blogs
I can't help wonder,
what happened to that guy.
That guy I used to be,
the one that had it all figured out,
the one that was happy??
..........

I guess he got lost somewhere over the past two years...

I've laughed,
I've cryed,
I've loved,
I've learned,
I've been beaten down,
I've lost all hope,
and built it back up,

But im not the same,
I've changed,
I don't know when or where or even how,
all I know is I've changed,
I'm not the same,
I dont guess its my place to figure out why,
just to go on living,
I shant worry with the little things.

.....

Back to the grinding stone.....

Well it has been to long and ive put on to much....

so i decided to get back to the grindstone.

It felt so good today i couldnt help but to enjoy some outside time,

I decided i was going to start my jogging routine again,

so around 2:30 i went out and my feet hit the asphalt.

As they did I lost all awareness and just let my feet carry me.

As my mind wandered amongst itself diving in and out of memories and different thoughts,

my feet carried me on.

Target distance=5k or just over 3 miles,

Completed distance=about 3k or 2 miles,

Time taken=15 minutes,

It was a great first run for the year,

Although I woulda been a little bit more satisfyed if I had reached my target,

oh well lol maybe tomorrow.

Same old boring me!!!!!!!

Wow Its been quite the while,

since last i posted,

Not much new to me though,

im outta school,

and still made it no where witha job,

but i am just now managing to get myself pulled back together,

I just picked back up my old workout routine,

now if only it would warm up so i could run,

anyways, i reckon thats all i have to say,

tata for now,

sometimes

Sometimes life can be hard,

and things can be scary.

I have my worries about my relationship,

but the usually turn out to be nothing,

I just wished i didnt worry so much.

and i wished i wasn't so paranoid

or such the jealous type.

anyways thats all

ta ta for now

So....

Its been like forever,
I really miss everyone at church,
Im workin on getting back to coming,

I look different what with four gauge earrings in
and longer hair than most are used to seeing me with
lol




I really have alot to say,
I wonder if i can get it all out
??????

Ima give it a try,
I
have
but
22
days
left
until
im
outta
school
yippee

ok not so yippee
i mean
i have to get a job
and
i wont get to
see
my
girlfriend
all that often
and yea

But im kinda lookin forward to getting outta school and into the real world
and yet somehow it is oddly frightening,
the concept of
graduating
and moving on to
something bigger
getting a job,
seeking out college education,


i guess if you put it into perspective
its not all that scary,
but more exciting,
im wanting to go to college down in Orlando Florida
I love the sunny beaches
the warm salty air,

I cant wait,

anyways ima move on to my
Sweetheart
Her name is
Heather,
She means the world to me
I wouldnt trade her for anything
she is my sunshine on a cloudy day
she makes me smile when im not feeling very smily
She is six foot tall,
tan
and absolutely gorgeous

I need a car,
i know
what a random jump of subject,
but yeah i need a car,
i want something small
like a tuner,
a Jap. car
customizable,
and
well reliable

and i want to go bowling,
any takers,
and going to taco bell,
that sounds like fun,
anyways

i think thats all im getting out tonight,
ill post more sometime soon,

sorry to anyone who reads this
for the long period of nothingness,

peace

el oh el :)

Ok,
so alot on the mind,
As of recent,
aka the past two weeks.
I have done some thinkin,
I realized,
that life has more to it than just highschool and teenage years,
there is life after school,
and I have learned that there is no point in holding grudges,
no point in starting and or getting involved in
DRAMA,

Drama is but a pimple on the face of life,
and the more you agitate it,
the worse its going to get,

Anyways, I am also learning who my friends are,
well who my true friends are,
its been a real eye opener,
and I have stopped associating with many of
the "friends" I once had,

I have been working on being more mature,
some of my friends have said I can be immature,
and I can, but I dont think I take it to far.

And then theres the matter of me being one who is to risky,
I honestly dont think i take that many risks,
or that there that big of risks,
You cant live life without taking chances,
I mean how will you ever know what could be if you don't go for it ?

And there is this one person,
I wont mention names,
that just idk I cant help but like,
like alot,
she stays on my mind like
24/7
and I cant help it,
idk how she did it,
and I cant say I mind,
but she has done it.

:)

I cant not smile
when I think about her.

but I feel like we have grown kind of distant as of recent,
maybe thats my fault idk..

anyways she still makes me smile,
:)


I would like to think she smiles whenever I happen to cross her thoughts
but I never can tell,
anyways i think thats about it,

so

PEACE

long time no write ...

Any ways
Not much for me to write about really,
except to say how happy i am,
things are working out,
and i am doing good,
i only have 3 months of school left,
then i get to get a full time job
lol i cant say i look forward to that,
but its bound to happen sooner or later,
I dont have that much work left to do on my senior exit project.
and my home life is pretty good,
so i am happy for now,
And i hope i can keep it that way for a while,

:)